Immigrating to another country can make you reevaluate many things you take for granted // Edriel Fimbres

By:  Karoline Santos Souza, Staff Writer.

One day I woke up in a different bed, and I was not in my home country. Well, that was not exactly what happened; starting from the beginning, I moved to United States last year by myself, and the first feeling that I had was “I don’t belong here.”

Everybody knows that it’s normal to feel awkward in a new place, but that feeling continued to follow me for longer than I thought. As much as I would like to feel welcome here, I felt like I didn’t  fit in this place.

The problem was not the language, the culture, or distance. My real big deal was to handle the feeling of knowing that I had no memories in this country. Have you ever stopped to think about your surrender and what does it means to you?

Well, when you do that, you can see little pieces of yourself around the places, and with this you know where you were, what you did, what you learned and how you felt about that area.

No matter what memory you had in that moment, you know that place belongs to you in the same way that you belong to that place.

That missing little piece of me was the reason I felt rejected. I was never here before, and I didn’t know any place here. Everywhere I looked, I couldn’t find myself. I knew I wouldn’t have this feeling forever, but it is very difficult to realize that I have no control over this.

After living in America for one year, from everything that I always knew, I came back to my country for the first time this summer, and it was nostalgic to see the community where I grow up and the people that I known and felt welcome again in so long.

However, the funniest part of this entire moving process, after two months in Brazil, my first feeling when I got to America was “it’s good to be home”.

I finally felt like I belonged here.

After months living in the U.S., for the first time, I felt complete. I had enough time to experience situations that made me the person that I am today. I just had to be patient with myself and give time to live my life comfortably.

We need to understand that it’s not because we’re new, or that we don’t fit in.. Here today, I know that I’ll always have my home country in my heart, and a new one to call home, a place where I feel safe, where I fit in in my own way, and most importantly, it’s where I am sure I belong.